欲哭无泪

原来一个人伤心到极点的时候
是连一滴眼泪都不会流出来的
我真的很辛苦
我尝试让自己伤心地大哭一场
可是眼泪始终没办法流下
原来伤心到极点时那么地辛苦
就好像一块很大很大的石头压得你喘不过气来

从UPSR到SPM 我一直都考获straight A's
而且一直都是第一班
我真的很难接受这一次的成绩
从来没有想过会有那么一天会如此的差
以前的我就算是60多分我也会哭
何况是现在
我真的欲哭无泪

我知道我对自己的要求很高
我要求完美
我承认我的确没有以前那么有冲劲
我也不知道为什么
我知道我自己是需要挫折才会发奋的
从这一刻起
我对我自己发誓
我一定会努力
为我下一次的考试而奋斗

当我接过考试纸的时候
我真的呆了
我很谢谢所有的朋友
你们的关心
我收到了
谢谢Mei yee,Lee.k.f,calvin , chee fai ,jac .....
当他们看到我的表情时
他们都忙着说请我吃东西
安慰我
But，calvin u haven't treat me wo....
u said u will treat me sushi leh...
but at the end u eat with kuan fei ...
i dun care ar...treat again.....

这几天我过得的很辛苦
强颜欢笑的过日子
可能大家都觉得我没事了
可是我却还是不能发泄
我真的很辛苦

现在已经是凌晨2点多了
明天还要6点多起床
7 点才能回家
累死我了

cameron trip

As a bio student ,we need to do our bio practical by catching 25 insects of different species.We go to Cameron for 2 days 1 night trip.Unfortunately, it is raining cats and dogs the whole night .It is extremely cold the whole journey at Cameron .In a conclusion, we catch nothing .We just manage to dig some Marchantia for our next practical.Here are some of the photo taken ,for more photo pls view my facebook la....haha...

This so called (yik sou)- my good fren cum personal driver Seik mei yee.We took this photo in the Boh tea plantation 's toilet i think....haha...

I think i m in the rose valley ...

c ......how red n big are the roses.....

Boh tea plantation...


Calvin Nga...dun always eat ,eat ,eat la......

mei yee n chee fai...

Yin Jie ,Mei Yee n me......we are from PGS......woooo..

woo...this hibiscus is so huge ....bigger than my face ar...

look.....so many butterflies behind me...i wonder can i be one of them so that i dun have to catch insects.........can i be one of them living happily in the butterflies farm?
chee fai...now only i noe that u r so playful ..haha...i wear red then u wear red ..haiz..u should wear green wat ....same with Winne ma...

pui yeeng, winnie(mrs . leong) ,mr leong, calvin , mei yee....look at wat is on mei yee's shoulder ?another victim ....haha....

pui yeeng, winnie,Lee kuan fei and mei yee...

c this calvin ..so funny ar u......

oh..roses ...............

i like this small house the most......i like the atmosphere there.....

we are playing UNO.....SO COOL .....i keep on eating the snack until soat throat edi....

On the way back to Ipoh, one of the my fren ,Que Jun yik ( yik) buy two bouquet of flowers and give it to all the girls. We all noe that the main purpose of buying the flowers is not for all of us ,it's for Yik sou...hahaa...anyway ,thx for the two roses....i really enjoy the trip .....haha...

Leaving

I m leaving to cameron in another 6 hrs.....

will be back on this fri.....c u....bye.....

insects ...i m coming.......hahahaha...................

Blue....

I din online for a month i think bcz i was busying with my revisions for my 1st test . haiz....A (H1N1) spread rampantly in Ipoh and our body temperature have to be taken before we can go into the classrooms.Some of the teachers and students start to wear mask also. I din go to sch for 3 days edi and had been sick for 2 weeks. In these 2 weeks ,i went to consult the doctors for 3 times .

For the 1st and 2nd time were bcz of fever n gastric.After taking the medicine ,then gastric came again! haiz....It's just like a trend .Although i had taken the gastric medicine ,it's din show any effect also.For the 3rd time ,it's because of food poisoning.It was the night before my exams started.I had vomited 8 times n had diarrhoea for 4 times over the whole nites.gosh....i had to sit for my exams 2mrw.

When i woke up the next day, i was out of energy. My mom asked me not to go to sch but i wanted to sit for the exams. I forced myself to get up from the bed n headed to the sch.After school , my sister drove to the sch to fetch me back then only she continued her work. My mom drove me to c the doctor and i was proved to have food poisoning.

I was so disappointed to myself because i din do well in my exams.Although i haven't get the papers back ,i know that i m not doing good in the exams.I think i will get the 1st fail in my life .These are the worst results i think i will get .Even for my english,i think this is the worst n lousy essay i have ever wrote.Before that ,whenever i had finished writing any essay ,i would be full of satisfaction .But this time , when i had finished writing my essay ,i really wanted to tear the paper into pieces.I really din know what i was writing .I m so emo now....

This thurs and fri ,i will go to Cameron Highlands for insects collection n plant collection as well. I had killed a gasshopper!sobs....my aunt managed to catched one for me .My mom promised to help me to inject the formalin into the grasshopper's body but finally i had to inject it myself as my mom had to hold the grasshopper tight so that when i injected it ,it wouldn't jump and break it's legs.With great trepidation , i handed the syringe and walked near that terrible thing.My legs turned into water and tears welled up in my eyes and threathen to spill over when i slowly injected the formalin into it's body .I din predict that i would cry .I had killed a living organism.It's living ......

I am the homicide .I don't know that i have to be the murder when i m studying bio. Actually my mom doen't allow me to go to cameron ,she is worried that i may get H1N1 since she says i always get sick easily .haha...But i have to go , i need to collect a plant call machantia which is ony found in highlands.

My mom is preparing all sorts of antiseptics n mask for me and ask me to wear mask whenever i go...haiz...i will take care la.....dun worry....

Holidays......i want to sleep as much as i can ....so tired ...i wonder can i sleep before 2 am every day...a lots of works awaiting me...

will post my photos later ................

We Are Different

we have changed ,we have grown and we are different.

we are different in our height, size ,look ...........we are unique n exclusive individual in the world.We have our own traits n DNA ,so we are totally different from one another even though the twins they may have the identical look but they are different in their behaviour.

We should admit that some how we have changed .Let's me bring the time back to F5....haha.....I still remember i was sitting besides Ng Kah Yee and Jie Ying and Fiona were sitting behind of me.We were really having a hilarious time .Every morning,we would gathered in the library to do our revision together. Our sch genius,Mei Hou ,fiona,Looi Looi, Ah loh ,Bobo,Jie Ying,Suit yee and so on would occupy the whole long table in the library to start our revisions.Whenever we faced any problems ,we would refer to our sch genius,Mei Hou.She knows everything and yet she do not take any tuition.We really hold her in high regard and now she gets JPA scholarship to study pharmacy at UCSI.

We have our specific seats in the library which we fixed ourselves.Fiona would always sitted at the left corner of the table and ah looi always liked to fight the seat with me...haha...sometimes i won and sometimes i lose....But we always went to the toilet together ...haha....She was my best toilet companion....haha.....

5Sc1 and 5SC2 were as close as one family.We would run to their class to play and they would run to our class to chat with us....we know each other very well.....Even my darling,yan yee was not the same class as me and yet we would fall in love with each other...Yea...darling i love you...haha....when the exams were coming,we would 'add oil' with one another.whenever we got any tips ,we wouldn't hesitate to sms the tips to each other bcz we were in a big and loving family.....

Now ,it's time to come back to the present.We are different from the past .Some of us are at KL ,Kedah,Kampar ,Singapore ,Aust .....We have scattered all over the world .

We are different.
We are big girls now .we are no long the same as the past.we know how to make the right decisions,we know how to drive and we know how to make the best for our life.Once we have got our license,we will drive our car to sch and go out to meet our friends.In other words ,we will go out to 'wet' lo...haha...

I still rmb when i was 5 yrs old, i liked to play my father's hair whenever he came back from Johor or Malacca with my elder sister .we were quite naughty that time.haha....we liked to tie his hair which we called it a coconut hair....it's very funny when he saw his hair being tied like that when he woke up from his bed .He din scold us and some more ask my mom to see what good deed that their 'naughty ' daughter had done......Minutes ticked by and hours slipped away,my sister is working now and i m having my pre-u studies now.we can no longer playing like that because we have grown up....


I am busier than F5 now because of all the tutorial classes ,koko n tuition classes.But let's me clarify sth ....I just take two tuition- chemistry and maths....3 days.....so u all don always claim that i always go 4 tuition,k?I m busy bcz of the sch activities and tutorial classes...sometimes i take my lunch at 4.30pm bcz of the meeting n whatever stuffs....it's me make me exhausted....

I really look like a wilted flower with a pair of panda eyes....my face is so pale that's wat they always tell me....gosh ....some more i haven't started my intensive studies leh.....

Therefore, I went for mountain climbing with chee sheen ,mei yee, poh ann, pooi mun christina and chooi mee.we would like to release our tension.....

a beautiful scenery.....
yea...... poh ann ,christina, pooi mun

suddenly we saw this terrible millipede.....i wonder how should we do our insects collection ...so scared

c this chan chee sheen.....
we found a small water fall here......

crystal clear water teeming with life
chee sheen n poh ann....

*i would like to apologize to my VVIP,7-11 ,sorry for giving u my first hollow promise.i feel so bad n guilty also.....sorry for the lack of time bcz i was busy with my studies last two weeks.....

HaRi Anugerah...

Summary: a memorable hari anugerah.

go go go...
Pgs we r coming...

mei yee...concentrate on at the road ....dun risk oue lifes...haha..

we are almost reaching

chen nee n jac...




our booklet...
haha...this is me ...i get two prizes ....

we are at the VIP room of our grand hall...

零

刚刚考完车，幸好最后还是拿到车牌了。一个人坐在kopitiam,眼看窗外就要下雨了。真的不出我所料，针一般的细雨就像雪花一样地飘落。不知为什么，心情就好像飘落的细雨，那么没有方向，那么寂寞，那么迷茫。

在用餐的同时，我可看到窗外停满了许多车辆，大概也是来逛街的吧！独坐在一角的我，看到许多年纪轻轻的学生，成群结队地在广场里游荡。他们也应该是想轻松一下才去上课吧！真是有趣。。。

雨终于停了，可爱的太阳也懒洋洋地把头从云朵里露出来。太阳代表着希望及快乐。可是，很快地，太阳又被身上的懒虫给逼回去云朵里，又下雨了！这两个小时的独坐，让我想了也看了很多东西。在学校，我最喜欢做的东西就是聆听那清脆悦耳的教堂钟声。虽然，我是佛教的，可是每当我听到这钟声时都会使我感到很舒服。不知道为什么，也有一种幸福的感觉，就像新朗和新娘十指紧扣一起坐进教堂里的那种幸福的感觉。很好笑吧？那是我唯一的娱乐啊！哈哈。。。。

狗狗：我永远爱你。。。好感动喔。。。哈哈！！

原来每一个人都会改变！不要否认，我感觉得到。说真的，我是真的很失望！不要问我是谁，问一问自己吧！兜兜转转地我还是在原地，一切都还是归零。我不可以三心两意了，所以‘萤色记事本’我也将会把它毁了。