Soulless

I am like a vampire

walking on the street

without soul .

I can truly experience the harsh reality of life,

I just like the pebble by the roadside,

wondering who Will understand me ,

who will console me

and where is my source of encouragement ?

Am i able not to throw into the towel ?

I wonder ...

When can break away from the emo cycle?

I am All by Myself.

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10.4.2010 参观老人院 &主持辩论比赛（半决赛）

地点：狮尾老人院

参观老人院后，我们便以最快的速度赶回三德准备成为下一场辩论的主持。换好校衣后，我的两个男佣便开始为我效劳。哈哈...

参观老人院后，

我发现，

人生无常，

我们并不能预测我们下一秒会怎样，

更何况是我们的未来。

很多时候，

我们会因为别人的一些话而放弃了我们的目标，

我鄙视从未尝试过就放弃的人，

别人的三言两语就足以让你举白旗。

我开始了解，

我开始接受，

我开始承认，

我开始学会

面对自己。

我学会等待，

等待在对的时候，

对的机会出现，

能让我在对的机会上大展身手。

师父说：

越无所求，越有所得。

这样我们才会学会珍惜，

生活才会快乐。

17.4.2010 越野赛跑

19.4.2010 -Closing Ceremony 's emcee

今天是全霹雳华语辩论比赛总决赛，很荣幸能成为今天的主持。很幸运地能和著名ASTRO AEC “新闻报报看”的主播-颜江翰合照。

*I didn't study Chinese for two years and i am having difficulty in typing and writing my mother tongue .Luckily ,speaking still ok .It is a very short post with brief descriptions because there are rashes on both of my hands after the second dissection!It's itchy !The conclusion that i can make after the dissection is No killing ,if not you have to bear the consequences of it .=(

Dissection of Rat ~scarrryyyyyy...

The much anticipated day finally dawned -Dissection of rat ~~~

After the insects collection , i am able to cope with my insects phobia and now i have to cope with my rat phobia as well .It's very horrible when i think of the rat .Here are the dissecting set that we need when we dissect the rat.Now ,we are dissecting the rats only but just imagine , in another 5 more years we may 'dissect' human .haha...So, don't make me angry ,i may dissect you with my silvery dissecting set since i think after the dissection i will be very pro in cutting .haha

First ,our homicide-KONG KAR CHUAN was pouring the whole cage of rats into a big red dustbin filled with chloroform .It's sad to see that how hard the rats were striving and fighting for survive.On the spur of that moment , I realized that human are the cruelest organism on the earth.Human beings think that with money ,we can do whatever things that we want.With money , we can even sentence any creature to death .But , is it right for us to decide whether they should live or die?The answer is NO .We don't even have the rights to take away their life's .

Some quarters claimed that we are the one to rule the world ,therefore we could destroy and kill
anything as long as we are happy.Actually ,we are not much different with them .Human beings are also mammals .The only thing that differentiate us is that we humans are able to think and use our mind wisely .I feel that i was a very cruel people who killed because of a short glance of the organs of the rat .It' inhuman and a barbaric way in order to have a clear image on the mammal's organs.Science sometimes can do more harm than good to the environment .We killed for the advancement of the science and technology .When we looked at the big dustbin again , we could see that the rats were so innocent .They didn't deserve this treatment .The purpose of their existence on the earth is just to let the cruel human being to dissect.Is that what they deserve?

We could see that some of the female rat were pregnant and there were the innocent baby rats inside their mother's uterus .People are using them to earn money by keeping them and reproducing them in the pet shops,then wait till the peak season and sell them off to earn a handsome income .It's ridiculous .

With great trepidation ,i started to pin the rat on the dissecting tray .I really had a hard time as i was too scare and i could feel the pain in my heart .But ,somehow i knew i have to do that .Then ,we were requested to unskin the rat .I could still feel the heart beat of the rat but after some time the heart beat had become slower and weaker and finally i couldn't feel the beating of its heart anymore .I knew i had killed it .I was a murder ...

After the experiment ,we were asked to preserve our rats for the next dissection on next Thursday .I had washed my hands for 3 times but i could still smell the odour of the rat .Omg ...i felt that my hands were so dirty .I could hardly forgive myself .

2010 wishes

I wish to write about my 2010 wishes for a long time already finally i am able to blog about it.

1. Good Results

I am having my exhaustive studies which make me tired like working as a labour in the construction site .The labours are physically tired but i am suffering from physically and mentally tired .Mountains of homework , tuition and meetings awaiting me !I am working like a dog with no proper rest starts from January .Having a proper sleep is one of my birthday wishes as i am thunder shocked when i look at the dark and big eye bags on the mirror .Sometimes i did wonder can i resist from the drowsiness and the sleepiness so that i can have more time to finish my own stuff.It's easy to tell people when i feel sleepy because i will stop talking and sitting silently at the corner .haha...I am trying my level best to study and i hope i can reap my fruit of labour at the end of the year .Good results are very important to me .Nothing can reduce me to tears as easy as my results .GAMBATEH ...

2.Health

I hope to have a healthy body with no visitation of my close friend- gastric .I hope you won't come and disturb my day as you will definitely ruin my mood and causes severe pain in my stomach.

3. Increase in weight

Haiz...talking about weight i will definitely feel blue .I went to my grandparents' house today and my grandma was asking me why i had become so thin ?I was like huh?i loss weight again ar?losing weight make me depressed because i was not able to donate blood for the needies due to my only 43kg .I still need another 2kg in order to reach the minimum weight for donation .I had measured my weight before the school reopen and it was 45kg ,just enough to donate blood .Unfortunately ,due to unknown reasons,i loss weight again .Although i couldn't donate blood , i had signed up to donate my organs in case i 'leave ' the world last year .At first my parents were strongly disagree ,but at last my sister and i managed to persuade them .

4. My Nick nick

Talking about my zai zai ,he is now 4 months old and has become very naughty .I hope he can enjoy staying together with us and don't always vomit .haha...Cooking dinner for him has become a daily routine for me and i think my cooking skills have improved by leaps and bounds.We have found a partner for him and he seems to like her very much .Let me introduce to you my nick nick 's partner -POTATO .She is two times smaller than Nicholas and she is now staying in my aunt's house .We are going to make sure that potato is nick nick one and only soul mate and at the same time my nick nick is potato one and only one Mr right.Every Sunday ,we will go to aunt's house so that they can foster their relationship .To me ,true love is stronger that the flutter of the heart .According to my friends ,i am a bottle of acid which has a very low pH value ,if you are not alkaline enough ,then i may corrode you .haha...Learning Acid and Base in my Physical chemistry until crazy already .

nick nick :dai gau dai gau ,hai ...if u cum to my house i will bite u since u said u want to bbq me.ngek ngek ngek ....

It's the fourth months we are here but it's seems like six of us are living in our own wonderland .Talking ,eating ,playing,dreaming among ourselves .Sometimes ,we all felt that we are the second class citizens here .There is a big and deep boundary that six of us are not allowed to cross over .I used to be a blender who can talk and communicate with anyone but i fail to function here .We did feel that we are not belong here ,can we keep on living in our own wonderland ?Maybe we are too sensitive ,i am not sure about that.It remains a big question mark??????

Blissful March

It has been 3 weeks since my previous post .Miss my blog a lot.In the twinkling of an eye , it's the end of march and yes it's a blissful March .I would like to recount some of my blissful event here .Hope you all will share my happiness and also sadness with me while you read this post .It will be a very very long post .hehe...

5.3.2010 -USST 's Secret Recipe Chocolate Cake

We are having meeting after school about the Sports day which we be on 2mrw . 'Unfortunately ', mei yee and i end up with our white uniform 'eating ' the cake .My white blouse is full of the mouth-watering chocolate cake and even my face and hair get dirty because of what the USST-ians has done to me especially Lee Kok Lun and Albert Leong .I m going to seek for retribution one day ,you all wait and see . Anyway ,mei yee and i are deeply moved by their birthday song and cake .I can see that mei yee is on the verge of tear and when they sing the birthday song to us ,the song has almost reduced her to tear.Thanks to all my usst-ians ,love you all forever .muacks.....

6.3.2010 -Sports Day

This is the first time i go to Sam Tet 's sports day.We usst-ians are required to duty today and on the other hand my club-Buddhist society have decided to sell curry fishball on the sports day .Many people did leave me a message in my facebbok and asked me why Buddhist Society sell fishball in fact we shouldn't sell meat .But ,this is our president,mei yee's decision and if we take a mature look ,we are just raising fund for our club and we have to be more objective in doing business.We have ordered 4000 fishballs .Let me emphasis this is 4000 and not 40 !!!
Surprise ,stun ,knee turn to water already once u hear about the number ?haha...At first ,i did wonder can we sell all of them .I am not sure but at last we did sell all of them and got a handsome income .haha...

After the Sports day stuff ,I meet up with my sweeties , Jie ying at parade who purposely come back from Kedah and not to forget our bff Wong Sheng Fei who is studying together with jie ying at AIMST .I would like to express my deepest gratitude to them for celebrating my 19th birthday with me .Thanks for the Etude eye lotion from jie ying,i know i have big eye bags because the monthly test is around the corner .I m glade to have you as my sweetie ,jie ying .You know everything about me .Thanks for being by my side when i need you . After having lunch at Sushi King , we bought a couple keychain and it is a must for both of us to wear it on our phone .haha...there it is ...

At night ,i go to my youngest aunt's house to have bbq .I still remember i celebrated my 18th birthday at her Japanese Restaurant last year with all my colleagues .Thanks for my aunt , uncle and cousins for celebrating my birthday with me .Last but not least ,my grandparents,thanks for the BIG angpau from you all .Love you all so much ...haha

9.3.2010 - My 19th Birthday

Today is my big big day and of course i know my usst-ians will spam my hp till mad .This is the foregone conclusion already .When the clock strikes 12,my hp starts to ring endlessly .When i look at the messages, mostly is from my usst-ians especially kok lun who has sent 50 birthday messages to me ,thanks for his 'dai li '..haha....

Unfortunately ,the next day my monthly test starts.It starts with the terrible Biology.It's sad that i have to slave behind the mountain of books on my birthday .

I would like to seize this golden opportunity to thanks all of you for all the presents, messages and call.Before i forget ,i would like to thank my eldest aunt for her colourful 'flag' .haha...Next time should buy one set for me ma ...haha...Thanks for remembering and wishing me .I m deeply touch .

10.3.2010-12.3.2010 -Exams days

Exams on and i m thunder shock when i see the questions paper especially the MUET essay quetion -CAPITAL PUNISHMENT! Frankly speaking , i know nothing about capital punishment but somehow i have to force myself to write a 3 pages essay .

15.3.2010 -Back to PGS

Today ,i go back to PGS to help my junior to prepare for their first round of debate competition which is held in sam tet tomorrow .I stay there and discuss with them for 4 hrs then i have to rush back to sam tet to meet up with Eric to have a short meeting with him regarding tomorrow open ceremony as we are the emcee for the ceremony and at last i went to jusco .It's a busy day .

16.3.2010 -Debate I

I m the emcee for the first round debate competition and let me introduce my 'worthy' timekeeper -Albert leong and James .haha...Finally ,i have the chance to order them to do work la as they are my big boss in usst .I was in the state of euphoria when i heard PGS won the competition .Finally ,their efforts didn't prove futile .

20.3.2010 -Debate II

PGS team enters the second round and they win again due their stable performance .Good work.I m proud of them .GAMBATEH ....

22.3.2010 -Jie ying 's birthday

大雨狠狠地洒落大地，

唤醒了沉睡的回忆。

清脆悦耳的雨声，

提醒我，

虽然大家被无数的河流及道路分隔，

但这不能阻挡我对你送上生日的祝福，

洁盈，生日快乐！

25.3.2010 -Belated present

Today ,my guai zai ,yah qi wen (yaki) give me my belated birthday present after the squash practise. haha..I m learning squash and tennis at the same time and it's fun ...I m very happy to have a son like him ,very guai zai and tang wah .haha....I like his drawing very much and you all can check the 2008 sam tet school mag for this picture ...pui yeeng likes ...haha

26.3.2010 -Headache

Today , due to laziness i do not go to school and the real reason is i m not feeling well .I m suffering from serious headache and feel like vomiting .But when i go to toilet ,nothing come out from my stomach .sobs...Wei wen and some claim that i am in a family way .They are guessing away happily in the school about this matter .haha...Winnie said she miss my little chicken voice when i din go to school ...haha

27.3.2010 -Debate III

Early in the morning , i go back to school for VAD 7 meeting and yes i still have headache ,serious pain .Blowing water with my gang ,taking photo with mun yee (dai gau ) and last but not lease lunch at kopitiam .

see ,that dai gau smile until the eyes also can't see already ..haha
my gang....=,=

After my brunch , sabby ,winnie and our ji mui 'calvin go for shopping .We can hardly suppress our will to buy things .We go to F.O.S and reveal our shopaholic face accidentally .haha....

white or grey ?

coffee ,tea or winnie ?(quote from albert )

Black rocks...

After receiving my juniors message ,i rush back to lecture hall 2 to have a final discussion with them and i can say that today's competition is very exciting and finally they won without fail .They have enter the semifinal and i will be the emcee for their competition .It's the 3rd time i become the emcee in sam tet .They have done a great job today .Catch them on 10.4.2010 at 2pm in lecture hall 2 .see u there .

To end my post ,let's discuss about today's debate topic -人生没有恋爱，生活依然/不再精彩？wat do you think ?wait to see your point of view .time to sleep ,nitez .

I see you...

Recently ,I m busy with my coming monthly test .So sad ,my exams start from 8.3.2010 until 12.3.2010.

Anyway ,long time didn't update my blog. Actually i plan to write about my 2010 goals n wishes ,sad to say that i m racing against time to complete my revisions so i think i have to write about it after my exams.Due to time constraint ,I can only sleep for 4 hours per day .It is a very harsh time for me as i like to sleep .

I have changed my blog's songs .haha...'I see you' by Leona Lewis! Do u know what song is this ?sound familiar?haha..It's from Avatar.....

Time to off my pc as i have to continue with my revisions.=(

I hope...

I can hardly close my eyes ,

I can hardly sleep ...

My doggie is fever and we are so worried about him .
I think he has caught a cold .
After consult someone,
we decided to give him 1/4 panadol to consume .
I hope that we are just unduly worried and may god bless him .
I am too worry about him until i can't fall asleep ...

When my sister gave him medicine to eat ,
he refused to take in that little tablet because it's too bitter .
Somehow,we force him to eat until he vomit .
When we saw that ,
our emotions had taken a tumble and we felt guilty for not taking good care of him .



But ,we knew that he must take the tablet in order to recover .
After our endless efforts,
we managed to get an idea so that he could take medicine .
First ,we dissolved that tablet into water .
Then ,we mixed it with his favourite biscuits and
yes he took the medicine happily.


Hope my nick zai will get well soon ............
I promise

if u get well soon ,i will buy u a new toy

nicholas....