JPA Interview

I think today is the much anticipated day 4 me......

I went 4 jpa scholarship interview this early morning.......just bcz of this i had suffered from sleepless nights.....bcome panda again.......so pity......yesterday i came back to the store to buy my 战衣......i tot i couldn't get 1 .....bcz i have lost weight again.....b4 that i tried to buy at G2000 BUT too thin already .....din have my size.....tooooooo bad.....

then no choice already....have to go back to the store there to buy....

luckily ,i got my 战衣 at Pots-1......haha.....therefore i looked very pro this morning.....really wery pro ar...haha....i was SO luckily to be in the 1st group to 送死....haha.....there4 9sth i had finished the one hour interview.....so cham.....

1st of all ,we had to intro ourselves.......i tot it's using bm,then i prepared it in bm......but then out of my expectation,we need to intro in english......it's make us in a mess and we had to think n talk on the spot lo.....

Then after that , we had to answered 1 question in bm ....this was my problem....i am not very good in bm....oh my godness.....then the rest of the discussion we used english .....

haiz...unfortunately,one of my group member tried to dominate the discussion!!!hern....as a debater , she also din give me face wo.....hahahahaha.......

i think the chances of getting jpa is very low la....so sad.......after my interview,i went to parade to have my breakfast.Then ,i shopped with some of my frens.....after they had left,i shopped alone in parade.......as wat i like to do ,i went to popular to search 4 books......this was the 1st time i shopped alone in POPULAR in these 3 months......then i heard "The Moment" and "Bcz u love me" in popular......haha.....

i still haven't got my blood test report....but i think i will be fine.....i still dun want to die 1st la.....haha........but my phone is ringing non-stop now ar......OMG....all of them were asking me how's the results?but i think i m ok la....just dun worry about me

what i want to do now is -I WANT TO GAIN BACK MY WEIGHT!!! when i went back to the store,all of them said that i had become thinner already.....so sad....so sad....i want pressure free pls..........haha....

Gastric.........

haiz....just after about one month then "u " evil n disgusting thing cum n disturb me again.....

i still have a lot of things need to settle.... i need to go back to sch 4 a few times to certify my certs n oso prepare 4 my interview....so many things still have to do .....i still need to work but at the same time i need to apply 4 scholarships n oso find colleges.....

But unfortunately,"u" come n disturb n spoil my plans..GOD!!! REALLY REALLY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY PAIN ar.............

Today i MC again....so no need to go 4 work .but 2mrw need to OT till 10sth at night.....haiz....

just went to consult doctor...n take a blood test.....the doctor asked me to take a blood test bcz he scared that my stomach has the so called 'virus' ,dunno call wat already which will lead to death....sound like very serious ....bcz he said that it is very weird that i have gastric so often....that 's mean it's not a good sign !!!

haha....i still dun want to die 1st leh......haha.....i still have a lot of things haven't do ....still have a lot of delicious food haven't tried b4......i still want to fulfill my dreams.....still want to go to my dream lands -Italy and Paris.haha.....

next tues the report will be out....my parents are very worried now...but i feel ok now....just feel a bit funny.....haha....wun worry also......just feel very very pain......haha....i think this time it's really serious lo....haha.......

so 'yam gong 'ar.......

c .....my hand swell already......haha......

My Results.......

On the 12th march i went back to sch to get my spm results.....

haha....i was nervous, i was anxious , i was afraid.....haha.....around 10sth finally we could get our results.....when it was my turn to get mine, i could feel that hot blood pulsing through my veins....when the teacher passed the results to my hands n i open my eyes as big as possible to see my results.....

Surprisingly i got straight A's .....at 1st i was like on top of the world but after a few seconds , i felt depressed ....bcoz it 's not straight A1 's.......but my parents, my grandparents n oso aunties uncles are very very happy....maybe i have a higher goal i think ....honestly i m not that happy.......even when people ask me ,i oso feel like that's nth proud to tell.....

haha....but i would like to thx ms.dena ....thx 4 teaching me 5 years English ...u r really a dedicated teacher......i hope u have received my msg ....if not of u , i wouldn't be able to score A1 in my 1119....and oso pn lok....thx u very much....if not of u,i wouldn't be able to write a good essay....thx....

Lastly, thank u to all my tuition n oso sch teachers.........love n miss u all forever....

this is wat come out in the 星洲日报on the next day.....haha....same as the time when i got my pmr results.......

After that all of my friends went to my aunt's Japanese restaurant to have our lunch....i had booked 2 rooms 4 them.....haha...i think after that it is very difficult to have gathering already.....haiz....
we are having our kushi yaki mori....haha...

fiona n me....



delicious.......

MARIE, ME ,FIONA N OSO CHEE SHEEN.....

SUE ANN N YEE CHEN....

MARIE,MEI YEE, ME N WEE NEE.....

SEE.....HOW HAPPY THEY ARE WHEN THEY NOE WE ARE GOING TO TAKE PHOTOGRAPH.....HAHA.....

HSIAO WEN....U ARE SO CUTE AR....

CHOOI MEE....Y U ARE SO FAIR....JUST COME BACK FROM NS BUT U R FAIRER THAN ME!!

my cute cute marie....

Nervous ...

just another 24hrs...then i have to get my SPM results already....

very NERVOUS n ANXIOUS.....My family members seem to have a very high expectation about me...but i just....haiz...not sure ...pls dun keep on asking me how many As' i will get...i really can't predict it...

All of them think that i m still like form 3- straight As' .....and i appeared in the newspapers...during that time they were very proud of me...

UPSR &PMR i oso got straight As '.this is y they have such high expectation about my spm results...but i m so nervous n stress now...dun feel like eating ,can't fall asleep...........=.=

Tomorrow morning i have to go to sch before 8:45am to help my teacher to type the names ...so i think i m the 1st student to know the results......my mom, dad,aunties ,uncles n even my grandparents are waiting 4 my call 2mrw....they are more 'gan cheong 'than me...they make me more 'gan cheong' now.....

need some consolations now....will i get what i aim for? it just a question mark!!!

Not Available...

So many days that i din online....bcz my computer had Virus...so cham ar...now only i am able to blog...



Working in that place ...haiz...actually i m not so happy...but at the same time i have make some friends...now all of the chefs,waiters n waitresses are my best friends ...we play ,we chat ,we make fun of each other, we have our lunch together....every day we will go to different places to have our lunch....two cars for 7 peoples...

'They' have asked for my contact no. for so many times already...but unfortunately i refused to give them...they know that i m NOT AVAILABLE....haha...should say like that- i dun give myself the chance to be available.....although they know that i m single just that ....i oso dunno y ?so funny oso,right?

I really couldn't understand y all of my male friends like to play my hair!!! why? is my hair so fun to play? haha...all of the chefs n even he likes to play my hair...can anyone tell me the reason?

They did think that i m only 16++ ... always treat me like a little girl...sobs.....I m 18 lo ok...
last thurs they had just celebrated my birthday with me...they were very 'naughty ' n playful...make my whole face dirty...how evil were them?we ordered pizza then had it at my aunt 's restaurant...we played until crazy ..... most ot them r 20++ already but still like to play like this...maybe most of them think that i was very happy that day ...but actually i was not ...just feel like lacking of sth... i oso dunno what is the reasons ...supposed that i was very happy but i was not....

Haiz...2mrw is my b'thday...but i really dun feel any single bit of happiness...so weird.....=,=

Privacy

I m super angry n sad ...i decided to turn my blogs into private ...



Actually i dun ever think that this kind of thing can happen...the main purpose of me to create a blog is to release tension n write whatever things that i like...but things seem to be different already...



i have deleted two of my latest posts...this is bcz the 'evil thing' has discovered my blogs n he dun like me to talk about his life's work...honestly i m super infuriated...this is my privacy,ok?i can write anything in my blogs as long as i like it,i m happy ,right?



i m really really very unhappy working there ...not bcz of the people , it's bcz of the problems that have arose....i prefer working at the store rather than where i m working now...but i m very glad bcz all the people there are very nice ...just a few are very bad...i will try my best to ' yan'....hern...



i m very upset these few days...but i din Even tell anyone...hoping 4 some consolation oso...haiz...i m very down n anxious bcz the spm results will be out on the 12 th march...i wonder which road should i take...pharmacy or bio or chemical engineering ?form 6 or college? i really dun know!!! can anyone tell me which road to take?

Bcz or this heavy load of problems n questions , i could hardly sleep these few days! nightmares ar almost every day .....some more bcz of the problems related to my blogs i think i m in the black hole now...

now really can't fall asleep ... 1 sth alredy but i m still thinking that incident related to my blog...did i really do the wrong thing?did i really wrong to write about it ?2mrw still need to work ar...

A busy Valentine's

haiz....haiz...valentine ?so wat i also have to OT today...

I work from 9.30AM -6.30PM at my aunt 's Japanese Restaurant ,then i has my dinner with my grandparents n my aunt until 9 sth ...when i has back home , i think my body had shattered into smithereens already ...i was super tired...dun think that i was so free working at my aunt's restaurant...i had to do a lot of hard works ok?

haha... my aunt has hired 2 of my friends ...i m so happy bcz they are working with me...haha...
Today is valentine's day n tis is also Ms. Dena 's birthday...luckily i remember to sms her ...
Every year i also buy chocolates to distribute to all my friends...I m so sorry that i can't come back to the store to visit my friends...i has promised them i will go back to the store to celebrate with them...but i really can't go there...so sorry ar..so i asked bobo to buy chocolates to them n claimed the money from me... thies is what i normally do ... haha

I m so pity la...have to work till so late... there4 i can only celebrate with my sister n the King Kong-Joe...haha...i mean the movie la...anyway thx 4 all he msg n greetings that u all have sent to me...thx....

super tired ar today...should go to bed la...wun blog so often la...

wish u all happy valentine's day......